A Journey Not Chosen
The title of my blog is probably shocking to many, but I hope to show our God’s great love, grace, mercy, and faithfulness given to us as we walk through this journey. This blog is about the darkness of a devistating diagnosis of metastatic cancer, and the journey of the unknown. Our prayer is that you will see our everlasting Lord as He sustains, and holds His loving arms around us, gently guiding each step we take.
On November 25, 2017, we learned that my darling husband, Paul, has metastatic cancer. Upon hearing these words, my heart cried out to God asking, “why” and I was pleading for the test results to be wrong. I remember telling God that I wasn’t ready for Him to take my love away from me. My Lord came to my side speaking gently to my grieving heart, “You wouldn’t be ready if you had him 50 more years; no one is ever ready!” As His words rang through my heart and mind, I told the Lord that I didn’t like this path, but if this was His will for our lives, I would submit. As I surrendered to His will, peace instantly came over my heart. I know that my God will sustain us as we take this journey into the unknown.
God knew I would need a promise from Him, and the following passage is where He brought me on the morning of Paul’s diagnosis. I’ve always found great comfort in this passage, but I didn’t know at that time how much I would need this promise for the journey ahead.
I know the thoughts that I think toward you, Saith the Lord, thoughts of peace, and not evil, to give you an expected end. Then shall ye call upon me, and ye shall go and pray unto me, and I will hearken unto you. And ye shall seek me, and find me, when ye shall search for me with all your heart. And I will be found of you, saith the Lord...